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[There is a click noise. It sounds as though it might be judging you.]

Date: 2017-07-12 08:24 pm (UTC)
phaseshifter: ((´-ι_-`))
From: [personal profile] phaseshifter
[ There's a very physical pain to go along with the emotional now, and not just because Angel is biting her lip hard enough to draw blood. The nausea and the ache in her chest silence her for just a second too long to be natural as she gathers herself.

Her voice is, naturally, still even and calm. She's pretty sure it's fooling no one, though.
]

I let you feed on me because I love you. And trust you, for that matter. There isn't really any nobility to be found in being a human poptart, particularly in a scenario where you eat me before getting to know me.

Date: 2017-07-12 08:50 pm (UTC)
phaseshifter: (( ×m×))
From: [personal profile] phaseshifter
Iunno. Maybe.

[ It should sound mocking, parroting his response like that, but it just comes out hollow. He's probably right, after all, at least on some level. ]

That doesn't mean I'm wrong to trust them, though. Jack I'll give you, but not Rhys. Or you, since this is hardly going to be permanent. I assume that's why you're throwing this tantrum? Like a child who knows it's bedtime soon.

Date: 2017-07-12 09:20 pm (UTC)
phaseshifter: ((*´︶`*))
From: [personal profile] phaseshifter
[ The noise Beckett makes might be kind of scary, but Angel pounces on it anyway. Anger is weakness, and weaknesses are things you exploit in smug sons-of-witches with horribly barbed tongues. ]

Mmmhmm. Well, you've told me before, haven't you? It's okay to have the potential for badness in your blood. What really matters is making the choice not to be that person, and it's pretty obvious that you - the real you - has made that choice.

It's kinda cute. To think you have enough love for me to stamp down asshole urges of this magnitude. You're gonna get so many hugs when you're back to normal.

[ WHO SOUNDS SMUG NOW, PUNK ]

Date: 2017-07-12 10:10 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] phaseshifter
Except it isn't quite like that, is it? You can't choose to not love me, and that wins out over anything your nature tells you. So I'll never just be a silly scrap of flesh, you doof.

[ If a tone of voice could reach through the network and pinch Beckett's cheeks indulgently, that's what would be happening right now. It might be a little much, but she's going to keep pushing anyway. ]

And you know I'm right, I assume. Even if your current state doesn't allow for those feelings, you're aware that they existed and will exist again soon enough. Sucks to be you, I guess - but if you need a shoulder to cry on, mine is available.

[ hello douchebeckett would u like fries with ur mercy/grace combo meal ]
Edited Date: 2017-07-12 10:10 pm (UTC)

Date: 2017-07-15 07:40 pm (UTC)
phaseshifter: my art, dns >8OOOO (( ̄ω ̄))
From: [personal profile] phaseshifter
Oh, because having things be easy and clear is so important to you. Plus easier doesn't always mean better. Think of it like eating stale mass-manufactured cookies versus warm gooey home-made ones, if it helps.

[ She'd probably be laying on the patronising attitude a little less thickly if she knew what Beckett was thinking. Alas. As things are, managing to turn this conversation around so neatly is leaving her slightly giddy. ]

You shouldn't be thinking of yourself as a monster, either. Even right now. I've seen enough monsters to know you aren't one.
Edited Date: 2017-07-15 07:41 pm (UTC)

Date: 2017-07-18 07:28 pm (UTC)
phaseshifter: ((≖u≖﹆))
From: [personal profile] phaseshifter
I don't ignore it any more than I ignore the deaths I'm responsible for. We've both done bad things, but that doesn't make us monsters.

[ There's scorn in that last word, but it's dulled by the reminder of the most recent crop of casualties she's caused. Sure, it isn't the same as when she was following Jack's instructions back on Pandora, but still. Breaking open the tablets again was her idea, and the fallout is her responsibility.

Now isn't the time for self-flagellation, though. She's busy.
]

I may not know big chunks of your past, but I know you now. The, uh, real you. Not the half-finished version you are at the moment. So yes, I think that counts as knowing you. Pretty well, I'd say.

Date: 2017-07-18 08:09 pm (UTC)
phaseshifter: (-`д´-)
From: [personal profile] phaseshifter
I'm not lying!

[ That's hardly the point, and blurting it out sounds horribly childish, but. She's been doing well. She can keep this up, it's fine. She's fine.

The change in Beckett's voice is a welcome jolt away from any nasty Jack-related thoughts, anyway. Suddenly, though, hearing him losing it doesn't make her feel giddy or accomplished. She isn't scared as such, but the snarling is enough to make her profoundly uneasy despite the distance between them.
]

And if he-- you actually preferred being this way, then you'd have behaved like this before now. You're just lashing out like a freaking child because you know I'm right, and nothing you do or say while you're like this will mean anything because I'll still love you!

Date: 2017-07-21 12:25 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] phaseshifter
Of course I know you can kill me. I'm small and fragile. Quark could take me if he was determined enough.

[ She really isn't as good at the sneering tone of voice as Beckett is. It doesn't help that she's a little shaken - even though she's painfully aware that this isn't the Beckett she knows, not really, it's still heart-clenchingly horrible to hear his voice saying things like that. ]

But I know you won't. Not even now. It's a big town with no shortage of places to avoid you, so. So eat shit.

[ A grown adult really shouldn't want to follow that up by sticking out her tongue, AND YET ]

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