[IC Contact -- Snowblind]

[bookofnope]

[There is a click noise. It sounds as though it might be judging you.]

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[0thingsonmymind]

isaw
you

ithink it was
dream ?

*He had some weird ones last night. Which is weird on its own since he usually doesn't bother to remember his dreams.*

you werenot
dead gone

*And he's pretty sure he offered to share the ark with Beckett but he's not 100% sure about that.*

[bookofnope]

I wasn't. Haurchefant found me. Stopped me, physically.

[It was Angel who really stopped him - no - it was the memory of another man and woman entirely. But none of that mends broken promises, and what does he say?

He cannot talk about the ark. He can't say anything that might mean he's holding Brian to a dreamed, half-remembered promise. Promises should mean more than that.]

I'm sorry - I will say it as many times as I need to.

[0thingsonmymind]

you shouldhave
told

*He still doesn't understand why Beckett didn't. But he's not sure how he would have taken it.*

[bookofnope]

I should have. I... [Damnit, this is not getting easier.]

I didn't know how. I couldn't think. [He finds himself chuckling dryly.] I still can't quite, half the time.

[0thingsonmymind]

you


we
canstill
sea rch

[bookofnope]

We can. We should. [Don't mention the ark, but... deep breath.] I'm not looking to die again. I know I can't. You were right - all along - it isn't for us to choose.

[0thingsonmymind]

*He kinda wishes you would mention the ark, Beckett. Then he could be sure if that memory is right.*

we can on ly
do

itis not goodto
s t o p

*Please don't stop again.*

[bookofnope]

[He wants to say it, but what is right, what is fair? What can he ask from Brian, for the sake of his own life?

Perhaps he should make that clear, instead.]

Brian, the ark - I will help you find it, and I want nothing in return. I understand what it means.

[0thingsonmymind]

*There's a bit of a pause before the reply. He needs to sort through what he remembers from that dream.*

i off er ed

*He doesn't regret that, and is still willing to share.*

[bookofnope]

I know.

[His voice is still soft with awe when he thinks about it. Not an offer that can be refused - not in friendship.]

And I will take it - if it's you who is offering, in full awareness, and not only as a desperate mean to keep me alive.

[0thingsonmymind]

itis me
iwill
s h a r e

*Don't ask him to explain why, though. He lacks the words to fully understand how he feels.*

[bookofnope]

Then I will help. It isn't my search, but it's a reason to stay alive.

[Stay alive. It's a meaningful choice of words. And he means it.]

Thank you, Brian. You are a better friend than I deserve.

[0thingsonmymind]

iwant youto stay
a live



youare wel come

*He's not really sure if he deserves thanks--he knows he's not good at friends--but Beckett seems to want to say it so he'll take it.*

[bookofnope]

[Beckett takes a breath. Stay alive, yes. He just needs to remember, to keep remembering...]

I'm in the tunnels now. There is - a bit of a situation here. But it should be resolved soon, and then I will come find you. We should travel together, at least for a while.

[0thingsonmymind]

o kay
we are go ing to
wall
to try key card id card rob ert mill er card

[bookofnope]

The downtown wall, I assume. Are you still with Jade? Is she all right?

[0thingsonmymind]

yes, the met al one
iam
sheis o kay

[bookofnope]

I'm in the tunnels. I'll be heading west, then. Both of you keep each other safe. And thank her for me, for sticking by you.

[0thingsonmymind]

iwe will
if we go some where else iwill
tell