[He's had these discussions many times. Being a vampire and going in the company he had will do that to you. The answers are still well-rehearsed, even if they are beginning to fray when called upon to be more than words.]

If God exists, then we can't know his mind, and we cannot judge his design. Believe me - I've seen the gap in perception, in understanding, between the elders of my kind and even the wisest mortal. It's enough to teach anyone the folly of claiming we have any insight into the mind of the infinite. You are a doctor, you should know better than most that the greatest acts of kindness and care can seem strange and cruel to an ignorant eye. Faith means trust. And I -

[He wants to say, I still have faith. But it's hard to announce your devotion to a god who has already discarded you.]

I don't have a rulebook. I would agree with you, about free will. But I know that I am not a good man. I believe that essentially, we know what we are.